I hate this. How come after every good day there is a really shit one coming? Ive tried everything. I really did. Tried to keep off my mind from things that i knew would upset me, tried to get drunk, tried not to think of Him, but nothing worked. I still feel terrible and now i cant hold myself back. Im letting it out. Im sitting in the dark writing this shit and crying my eyes out. I still feel alone and lonely and i just want to stop.
Things with work look really shit and i have to worry about money as well and i just cant take it anymore.
I dont know what to do! Im scared and frustrated and i dont have anybody to talk to…
I hate this
I hate everything