I so knew this would happen! As soon as i say it out loud it’s gonna disappear… fuck this shit. Yesterday morning i posted here that i could used to Him being like this.
Well He wasn’t like that since then. I know i have to be patient and treasure the moments when He finally gives me what i need, but fuck this shit!
I NEED HIM! Damnit!
It makes me angry, it makes me furious inside but i have to keep calm, i have to trust Him
I HAVE TO WAIT
He does what He wants, whenever He wants to.
I have no right to feel anything but love. What a fucking stupid bitch i am? God, if He knew about this…
[5 mins later]
Like He knew… He sends me a video and it start like this
“Look, I know you’re missing my voice”
I love Him
How could i ever be upset with Him?
I am so stupid.
I have to trust Him.
He’s giving me as much as He can.